The body is round…

Can you get a job with insurance?

Ow.

That one hurt.

Oh boy…

So, to be completely honest with you here man, I can’t give you that answer. I can tell you why I choose to keep going, but that’s like, incredibly specific to me & not necessarily a reason that is salient or transferrable to you. For me it’s because I’ve got 3 nieces & a nephew all under the age of 10, and my sister (they’re all hers) tells me that I am genuinely their favorite uncle, because I am the only one who actually talks to them about what’s going on with them with school, friends, and things they care about, and I’ll actually run around with them outside & so on when I’m able to visit. My sister is also a reason on her own, cause we both grew up broke as hell in a trailer park with a mom who got blackout drunk on a consistent basis, and a dad who had all of the opinions & affects of modern christo-fascist conservatism, but in the 90’s. So we’re kind of the only two people that really understand each other, and I can’t just leave her alone in the world.

So for me it’s the fact that I have responsibilities to other people that come before the fact that I don’t really enjoy being alive a lot of the time. Again, I can’t tell you what’s important to you to keep you here, but I will say that there are people who can help you find that answer, that is partly what going to a psychologist is about. If you’ve got close friends, who you know you can be open with you can also try to broach the subject with them in an understated way, but that’s very tricky & requires a lot of mutual trust I think between the two of you. You have to be cautious with it, is what I’m saying.

There is other advice I could give, but this is what I’m prepared to share openly on the site as of the moment.

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Nah, don’t do that.

The thing is, you gotta learn to live with the struggle.

IDK, if this was the effect commenting was gonna have I probably shouldn’t have. I’m sorry for bringing you down tonight.

I shave most days out of the week, but I am probably spiritually a neckbeard, yeah.

I mean the answer here is that yeah, we live under Capitalism, so how much money you make absolutely matters to how good of a shot you have in the dating pool; particularly as a man.

Some people will tell you that these things don’t matter, because of some weird anecdote where they make up a dude who lives out of a dumpster but gets numbers all the time, but that’s not reality, and that’s absolutely not the norm.

Body image issues always led me to conceptualize myself as an entity inhabiting a body, the body being incidental.

I also felt this way until I started getting myself involved with physical exercise, and now I kinda feel more grounded in myself.

That might help you.

I just want to float through existence as a pure essence, interacting with other pure essences.

That’s basically what Human Instrumentality was, and the point about why that was bad was that you may not actually like who you “really are”, or who other people are, and they still may not actually like you.

or cowboys… who are all also cops

This is slander against RDR & Django.

It truly was the blurst of times.

Everyone talks about post-hog, but what about pre-hog?

I thought that was Factorio?

Is the goal is to communicate information in the clearest manner possible? Or is communication that is laden with ambiguity, irony, hierarchy etc., in short, social information that is supplementary to the literal meaning of the words, better because is more dense with meaning?

ReadFanon claims that;

Autistic people, speaking as one of them, tend to heavily focus on semantics in communication whereas allistic people tend to heavily focus on pragmatics.

My experience though is that in most circumstances the kind of “dense layering of social meaning” that you’re talking about is basically indecipherable to me in the context of an interpersonal conversation.

And so part of the reason why I might resort to “focusing on semantics” in the course things is because I’m trying to get the other person in the conversation to state explicitly what they would normally be trying to convey implicitly, because I cannot actually know what they are trying to say otherwise.

It’s like subtitles for somebody with a hearing imparement.

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I work where I have to meet lots of people that are generally not happy to see me because I’m talking to them about problems their kids are having in class.

See, I always thought you has some kind of office job adjacent to the IT sector, or something, cause that also comes up a lot in your posts.

All stories are about inner and outer human conflict. Your characters’ goals, motivations and the adversities they face will always be dictated, or at the very least strongly influenced by your ideology and world view.

This explains why I’m terrible at writing anything, or coming up with good overarching plots whenever I want to run a TTRPG. Because I don’t really understand other people very well.