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As someone who is probably the equivalent of this friend of yours to someone I know, patience is key
If they had said “I think you are a kind and sensitive soul and I want to be closer” to me when I was in a particularly deep pit of self-loathing, I would appreciate it at first but also be seismically rocked to my core by such a show of love, love being something that I had temporarily lost the emotional literacy to understand and properly digest. I would have said “I have tricked this person, I have done them a disservice with misleading advertisement.” It’s mean, frankly, because it underestimates their judgement, but self-loathing is all about being mean. Very “anyone who falls for my bullshit is a sucker and I can’t respect a sucker.”
BUT–I have crossed the Gulf, I’m a love conduit now, and if they said it to me today I’d probably weep but certainly reciprocate. All it took was time, maybe your friend will eventually soak up enough drip-fed niceness to ripen like I did, maybe it just needs time.
The setting has made me keep an eye on it, I have a soft spot for Pillars of Eternity 2, hopefully it keeps the same tone of “I like fantasy but I promise I have read some history books too”
The sea shanties they recorded really stuck with me, “roll the berath’s wheel” sometimes pops into my head.
Oops I consolidated a billion dollars oopsie
this could be you
Had a conversation with a cashier and said in passing “after all, every adult mind was built by a child” and she stopped me and said “that’s beautiful dude”
GOOD GOD
you are onto something here
cognitohazard pay
Hmm, that doesn’t sound impossible tbh, like just filling the empty space with psychedelia. That’s so in
(thank you for the compliment)
Haha, I will probably make more of these, they are fun little ways to revisit my book while I am putting a teaser of it on some public places
If you like it perhaps considering giving the author of the book one million dollars?
Good, it’s supposed to be like a scholar’s hastily drawn impression of a mural, the whole book it’s for is concerned with a “translation of a translation”
You’re welcome comrade, good luck to you in becoming a more fully integrated person.
Pro tip: If you just contextualize hard enough, you can draw with the skills of a child and claim it’s on purpose. “Ohoh, see the intentionality in every crude brush stroke to create a primitive style!”
This was me for a long time and tbh chafing at the barrier’s existence is the only part that in retrospect was really causing me harm. Looking back, I think making art to explore it was a necessary part of growing past it, instead of it being something I needed to shatter with a hammer.
No mistaking agamids, love em all
If the goal is to get it out of my system like you describe, I don’t do anything I’d describe as prep, rather I set it up like a special occasion. “Writing time” then becomes mixed up with some kind of lil treat, to separate my satisfaction with the writing done from the time spent. This way, even if the writing itself fell flat and I’m disappointed, maybe I still had a a nice time.
Since writing is often a matter of habit once the initial enthusiasm wears off (for longer stuff at least, not like poetry), my best success came from writing being the gravitic center of my day. It needed to be easy to start, and hard to quit early.
Got hit by a blast of what I can only assume is touch starvation yesterday
It’s only going to get worse isn’t it
Xiaohongshu is making me emotional, according to some of the Chinese users I’ve had conversations with, there was plenty of toxicity and petty arguing there until all the Americans arrived. Now it’s like there are guests and everyone is enjoying the novelty of it, meeting people outside of your bubble really do be something we humans are built to enjoy isn’t it
Your answer is received
(Now remains the last and most important question: of what does the elephantine dream? )
Yeah it’s wild, both Chinese and Indian history have a unique quality to me simply by the nature of having reached such incredible relative population size. It’s like when my eye is drawn to the biggest instrument in the orchestra.