Well, I recently got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. And instead of doing the smart thing, I’ve just been drinking myself to sleep multiple times a day, which is easy to do because I’m unemployed.

I’m constantly having to keep my head on a swivel because I pissed off a person known for shooting people and getting away with it - I didn’t know this when I pissed him off. Honestly shocked that what I said pissed him off to the point he had his friends jump me.

And last night I ran into an old crush who is not single and started the process all over again of trying to get past it and just be friends with him. But it’s hard to just let these feelings go. Fuck my life.