So I have treatment resistant major depressive disorder. I didn’t get relief for my depression until I was thirty-four. With my medical history and trauma background, only one in ten people matching my description make it to adulthood.
Lemme tell you, I kept trying new things, kept trying new meds, kept doing it even though it was exhausting and awful and I would rather have been dead. And finally, I found something that worked for me. And now! I can say that it was actually worth it. All that time I spent in the hell of every day, in the “nothing can be worth this,” it all paid off.
I’m not saying you should do or not do something. I just wished someone could tell me, then, that it would’ve been worth it. So I’m trying to say to you, that someday, it might.
I had a very talented doctor realize I had ADHD and they were going about treating me all wrong.
My current antidepressant is mirtazapine and it’s the only one I need. (It was prescribed for sleep, also. I have delayed sleep phase so I absolutely require sleeping medication.)
If you have ADHD, and I don’t really make serotonin. How could anyone expect an SSRI to help me if I don’t make the seratonin to selectively uptake??
So I have treatment resistant major depressive disorder. I didn’t get relief for my depression until I was thirty-four. With my medical history and trauma background, only one in ten people matching my description make it to adulthood.
Lemme tell you, I kept trying new things, kept trying new meds, kept doing it even though it was exhausting and awful and I would rather have been dead. And finally, I found something that worked for me. And now! I can say that it was actually worth it. All that time I spent in the hell of every day, in the “nothing can be worth this,” it all paid off.
I’m not saying you should do or not do something. I just wished someone could tell me, then, that it would’ve been worth it. So I’m trying to say to you, that someday, it might.
Thank you for this comment. I really needed to read exactly that right now. I am so glad you are doing better.
I hope you get to, someday! And we can laugh and reminisce about all the bullshit we went through to get here.
What was that something that finally worked for you?
I had a very talented doctor realize I had ADHD and they were going about treating me all wrong.
My current antidepressant is mirtazapine and it’s the only one I need. (It was prescribed for sleep, also. I have delayed sleep phase so I absolutely require sleeping medication.)
If you have ADHD, and I don’t really make serotonin. How could anyone expect an SSRI to help me if I don’t make the seratonin to selectively uptake??
Glad you found some peace. It’s what
everyonemost people deserve.