I’m paying for the low deductible insurance at my company (higher cost, supposed to be better benefits). I made an appointment for diagnostic assessment at the beginning of the year, their next available appointment was SEPTEMBER 30. They called me yesterday with the estimated cost to me after insurance (I mean nice that they do that but you’ll see why…) It’s going to cost me $800.

Yeah ok. Guess I’ll just remain self-diagnosed.

  • shiroininja@lemmy.worldEnglish
    2·
    1 year ago

    I sold some of my employee owned stock from my retirement plan to pay for mine. $3,000 out of pocket. I thought doing it and therapy would fix my marriage, but she left before we got to the therapy part. What a waste. Aspie forever alone I guess.

    • MadgePickles@lemmy.dbzer0.comOPEnglish
      31·
      1 year ago

      Relationships are really hard. I’m impressed you got to the marriage part… I’ve never gotten that far. Almost once. I felt similarly when that relationship ended. I think the journey to truly understanding yourself is the key to being able to have relationships that work well and are fulfilling. I hope one day you will view that relationship ending as a blessing, as I now view that one for me…I think about if my ex hadn’t been brave enough to be honest about our incompatibility (which I also felt but was too rigid to acknowledge fully)…I might have been stuck in that relationship for years longer not fully able to be myself and neither of us truly able to be as happy as we deserve. It took that pain for me to begin the journey that I’m on now, and honestly, I’m truly ok with the idea of never getting married or even having a romantic relationship “last forever”. Letting go of that need has given me freedom to explore all my relationships from a different perspective. Anyway, sorry you probably don’t want to read all this, I’m waxing philosophical.

      • shiroininja@lemmy.worldEnglish
        2·
        1 year ago

        Thank you. Yeah we were together 13 years, married for 3. We struggled with our incompatibility for a long time. Especially with my asexuality and distance. The Shame was that I didn’t know it was all because I was autistic for most of the relationship.

        But I like your prospective. It’s really honest and calming. While losing a relationship is difficult, I still look forward to figuring out who I truly am and becoming comfortable in this new life I have.