BountifulEggnog [she/her]
Autistic, newly hatched trans girl 
Love to talk, feel free to DM here or on matrix.
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22·vor 4 MonatenIt’s a very cool chart. I really like the way they have gdp loss next to human mortality.
Speaking more seriously, it is interesting/odd/noteworthy I guess (?) to me they think gdp losses will only be 50+ percent in the face of “high level extinction of higher order life on earth”. That’s obviously the minimum they expect but- really? Half of humanity dead, mass extinction, minimim 50% financial hit?
I suppose only time will tell. I will be very disappointed if I’m on the optimistic side of climate change.
7·vor 4 Monaten
I am safe.Yea sure, tell me about it
I like hearing from you.
depression, negativity, etc
I was thinking earlier about other paths my life could have gone down. And I don’t see how things could have ended up differently, with being trans. Being trans has given me horrible, horrible depression. I remember “the spark” fading when puberty hit, and my depression getting really bad 15/16~ when more effects were more noticeable. It has not gotten better. I don’t think it will get better. Being trans, the dysphoria, the social side, it has ruined me.
There have been so many things I’ve wanted to do, engage with, etc. That I haven’t. Because I’ve been depressed. And I believe being trans is the center of all of it. Its what makes the most sense.
I don’t see how its escapable. I am broken. My body is a prison. I feel alienated. I am not like them. I will not be understood. I am hated for being defective. I’m never going to be comfortable around people. Around myself. Its just suffering, literally forever, until I put a stop to it.
I don’t want to be depressed for the rest of my life. I’ve met people who were- and it seems horrible. I don’t want to be a self hating, alcoholic 40 year old one day. I don’t want to be empty, and bitter, and hateful the rest of my life. I want to feel normal again.
It has all been ruined. I can’t escape depression. The cause- the issue- is me. I am just broken. There’s not a fix. I’m going to keep coping, at least for a bit, with distractions, and talking with people, and probably some less healthy things too. But I don’t want to cope forever. I don’t want to be depressed forever. If life is just depression, maybe its not worth it. I still- can’t believe this has happened to me. What a horrible, cruel fate. I don’t deserve this.
I just want to feel normal again. Be normal. Act normally, I want to live my life normally, I want the depression to stop. I want the dysphoria to stop. I want to enjoy life again. Its just… all tied back to being trans. And I feel like hardly anyone understands. Not like being understood would change anything. There’s no changing. Cutting it off here because I’ll just loop on this, over and over, like I have been for hours. I hope I got the gist across.
self harm fantasy, vent, kinda extreme so maybe just ignore.
I want to slice my arms open. Feel the blood, the rush… god if scars weren’t an issue I’d have done it there so many times. I want it so bad. I have never been able to do the self harm I want to do- before I die I will. One of the last things I do on this earth will be slicing my left forearm open. I have wanted to for years and years at this point.
My god, this is still going?
How much of this thread have you read?
I’m tired of strong emotions, but apparently they are not tired of me :catgirl-flop:
So- I’m actually not too familiar with how precise ice core measurements are. If you have something specific you think I should read I’d love to see. I’m also recovering from getting my wisdom teeth out, so I can’t spend too long looking for information.
this (preprint) paper says:
broadly speaking, the shortest resolvable signal at high-accumulation sites is about one decade Trudinger, Etheridge, et al. 2002). At the lowest accumulation sites, centennial-scales features are markedly smoothed but still resolvable Nehrbass-Ahles et al. 2020
The British Antarctic Survery says:
The fastest natural increase measured in older ice cores is around 15ppm (parts per million) over about 200 years. For comparison, atmospheric CO2 is now rising 15ppm every 6 years.
Which- to me- says it jumping 100+ ppm for a few decades and then returning would leave evidence behind? And like, why would it jump so drastically?
I don’t know, sorry if this isn’t a lot of information, I really need to go lay down now.
The co2 level in 1989 was 353 ppm, roughly there ^
Is FO when number go down?
1·vor 5 Monatendeleted by creator
Ooh, I see now, thank you for explaining.
Bump
1·vor 5 Monatendeleted by creator
spoiler
I can’t actually find the quote you’re quoting
Their plan and comparisons to pornography are very scary. We are going to be labeled as walking pornography and charged with sex crimes.
I will air fry us some
meat
chicken tenders
, does that count?
10·vor 5 Monaten1.75c
I wonder if this is going to be a trend, because if so I want off.
There’s more I could post- but I’m currently in bed and in pain. Ice is disappearing and the arctic has been really hot this last week ish. Some spots up to 32c above “average”.
Wish I had 81tb of disk :sadness:
Where will I get the new domain from, and when will that happen? Will we lose data? My egg cracked here and a lot of my posts and replies mean a lot to me, if the data is going to be deleted is there a way for you to provide me that? I have been meaning to figure out a way to archive my posts/replies but have been very depressed and have put it off.