I agree with you in the fact that it’s hard for me to examine my past gender identity because so much of it is tainted by the constant abuse that was my childhood. How can I objectively say how I felt as a boy when I was literally attacked on a daily basis in part due to my femininity (I was very flamboyant and not white in a VERY conservative small town). I think that’s part of the reason why I tend to just want to leave all of that behind me and just identify as binary; parsing that terrible part of my life in my own mind is hard enough, let alone explaing that to people as I telll them I’m gender fluid, but actually I am functionally the most binary trans woman ever please don’t treat me as a man I’ll cry… lol

oh your comment diddnt come off wrong to me at all dw

While I do, at least conceptually, think i could be described as genderfluid/non-binary. In practical terms, I would rather jump out of a window than live as a man in any capacity ever again. So regardless of the reasons for that, I feel as if identifying as a binary trans woman best describes me to other people dexpite my expereince of getting here being vastly diffrent from most trans people. There is also the possibility that my expereince is just an unsual, but still binary, trans-fem experience and im just overanlyizing so much, as if you just look at the (external) tangables of my entire transition (I am now happier living as a woman than I ever have been, more confident than i ever have been, have no desire to live as a man ever again, love the way my body works on estrogen, had bottom surgery and was incredibly happy with it) it reallly does just seem like im a binary trans girl… idk

I think I am possibly gender fluid or some sort of non binary identity with a lot of fluidity, but I basically was abused out of my ability to exist as a man in society, which led to me essentially needing to live as a binary trans women, albeit with a different perspective…

Forced? Only by myself, as I thought it was the only way to keep living, though maybe that’s just proof that I am trans, and I simply constructed a bunch of mental hoops to jump through due to internalized transphobia?

Okay I just read this back like 5 minutes later and I’m completely delusional, I just described what being trans is, lol nevermind

I touched on this in another thread but wanted to share here.

I guess I am rather unique in my experience of transness in that I started living full time (and even passing) as a woman before I even self identified as one. The thing is, lifing as a women for aabout a year literally changed my internal sence of gender, I wanted it to happen and I made it happen. Maybe that’s just me rationalizing my inherent “transness” but that’s my recollection of events.

I’m somebody who absolutely does think I am trans purely by life circumstances, but I also recognize that the vast majority of trans people aren’t. Like I am incredibly glad that I transitioned and am now living life mostly stealth as a woman, years down the line, but I’m almost positive that if I wasn’t put through literal hell as a child (in the very cruel and specific ways that I was) I wouldn’t have even thought to have transitioned as a young adult. Perhaps I am completely incorrect in my assumptions about myself, and I would have turned out this way no matter what, but I find it hard to believe that if I wasn’t relentlessly bullied, harassed, beaten, and rejected by my peers as a child, that I would be sitting here now as a woman. I feel like I literally became a woman by sheer force of will in order to save my life, because I literally could not continue as the broken husk of a “man” I was at 21, and by some miracle it worked. But maybe I’m just delusional, idk

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Trump bringing back the outdoor cats discourse in order to divide and conquer the left, smhing my head

Bro I can’t even get free bottom surgery and I’m a citizen, what the fuck are they even talking about

Goodnight guys, I’m really sleepy in real life and it’s been a long day, my circadian rhythm is telling me, now is the time to rest, due to it being night time here in my part of the world

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Yeah, I’m a gamer, what are ya gunna do about it? Ban me for gaming? Huh, we truly are the most oppressed minority.

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Thinking about getting my first tattoo… I have had this idea for what I want for years now (a silly dark souls 2 message saying “Don’t give up, skeleton!” [The comma is important!!] below a skeleton resting against a wall with its mouth agape in a comical way, lol) but Im still afraid I’m gunna instantly regret it cuz it’s a stupid idea… XD

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IKR! I never really do in-game romances cuz I mostly find them cringe, and in most character driven modern RPGs that means you just worn get the in depth content for the characters or build your relationships with them much at all, but the non romantic friendships (especially Karlach) just go so hard. Another reason why that game rocks.