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14 hours agoCheers! It was pretty fresh outside, which was a nice contrast to the past few days!
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Felt mega tired today and had blurry vision, and so I just lay on the couch listening to jazz music. Managed a bit of guitar and then the dog was pawing me to pat him.
We also got news on Geoffrey the dog’s lump. It was cancerous, but the vet thinks they removed it all because they also removed a 2mm margin around the lump.
Now I’ve got some friends coming to pick me up, and I shall go outside properly.
Unfortunately not. Unless Scientology counts.
Filling out patient registration form because I’m getting my wisdom teeth removed next week. It’s asking for my religion, and amongst the options are Jedi and Witchcraft.
Friend wants me to put Witchcraft, but I’m thinking Jedi.
Edit: I am a Jedi
Me too. I’m suspecting it had something to do with the half a coffee I drank at 10pm. It was way too potent for a sleep coffee.
I just saw a Reddit thread about why people don’t drink alcohol. I don’t drink super often but
reasons why I should be sober indefinitely
- I have social anxiety and drinking is taking the easy way out by reducing the tension that automatically happens in social situations. I feel like my body loosens up and I can actually move and dance when I’m intoxicated. It’s weird.
- the buzz is superficial. It’s not a deep, fulfilling kind of contentment, it’s just a mask
- physical symptoms, like insomnia
- alcohol doesn’t taste good
- and it’s expensive
- plus the body doesn’t like it
- with each drink, I have less control over my ability to say no to the next
- my most embarrassing moments have happened under the influence of alcohol
- grandfather was addicted to alcohol and smoking, and I don’t want to turn out like that. His son, my dad, drinks wine everyday, and he becomes a bit of an idiot. I think this has to do with self-medicating because undiagnosed ADHD.
I’m going to download one of those sober apps, and use it as a conversation starter with new people, where drinking is involved. I think having a sense of achievement is one way to feel fulfilled in life, and this can be a little win.
End rant.
Gorgeous photo, perfect angle.
Cheers Baku 🫂
I don’t know what it is, but I’ve felt like absolute crap lately. I’m going to make sure I practise piano tomorrow and go for a walk. I’m also going to put practise into my schedule, because I’m not practising nearly enough.
Watched a movie called Glass Onion and it gets three out of five Hobbits from me.
We love you, Spud <3
Good luck Baku. Taking three modes of public transport and walking between modes in this hot weather is not fun.
I really hope she does.
I’m glad to be home after a long day. One of the managers asked me if I have another job and asked why I don’t. Then he said he’s glad I’ll be studying, so I can justify not having another job that is more reliable and consistent. That was an even bigger push to start applying for something else.
I later go on to find out that a girl who’s only job is this one got fired because she used her discount card too much. She said she shared it with a couple of family members, but somehow, they spent a few thousand dollars using her discount card.
The person who shared her card with more than ten people didn’t get fired. Although, she racked up less money than the person who only shared it with two people.
customer interaction today
Me: you purchased this over X days ago, so unfortunately I cannot refund this today.
Customer: really? scoffs and walks away
Me: next!
- customer comes back *
Customer: it’s only been ___ days, not however many days you said."
Me: I’m positive it’s over that. Do you want me to bring up a calendar and we can count together?
Customer: yes
I get to a week and then she realises.
people are eccentric, potential trigger warning, someone's way of dealing with trauma
Customer: I placed an order online and it says it has arrived. Can you get it for me?
Me: sure.
The order had just arrived from couriers. I go and grab it.
Customer: Thank you so much. Have a great day. No, have a great weekend. And may your children live happy and healthy lives. If you don’t have children, extend that to your pets.
She moves to the side and opens her order, which was a t-shirt she made that said, “I am a victim of paedophilia. __ raped me.”
I hope that having the t-shirt didn’t prolong her distress or lead to someone else reading it and being triggered by it.
Reservoir is 10km from the city and close to inner north suburbs with the cool music venues! Plus if you’re into gardening, lots of nonnas around who grow their own produce hahaha. Inner-ish west could be another place to look?
Very brave of you!
Just paid $200 so I can take a four hour test to say I have the literacy and numeracy skills to be a teacher. They threw in an “online convenience fee” too. First time I’ve ever seen that one 🙂🥲
Then I need to do some hunting for some placement clothes that actually fit.
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Two years ago, I went to see a psychiatrist for an ADHD assessment. Did some questionnaires, as did my mum, and after a half an hour telehealth consultation, I was told I have ADHD. The report I was given by this psychiatrist was riddled with spelling and grammar mistakes, and claimed things like I have binge eating disorder and insomnia, when I don’t have either of those things. The directions for medications were vague, and the GP I went to had trouble following what was written. This GP isn’t thorough himself, writing me a mental health care plan with also lots of mistakes, and one that said I was going to see a psychologist because of three types of insomnia that you can’t have all at once. But to avoid paying $60 out of pocket to see the more thorough GP up the road, I didn’t really have a choice. Besides, that GP said, “Really?!! We would’ve picked that up when you were younger,” when I said I thought I had ADHD.
So today, the GP asked me if I really needed medication. I tell him that’s his job to determine, but I have always struggled to stay afloat doing pretty much anything, and it’s made my life hell. He then asked me if I wanted to try a different medication, so he can change the permit to allow him to prescribe it. I told him I didn’t want to try a long-acting medication again, because I couldn’t sleep. He then tells me that he can’t change the permit to let me have something else, and the report is shit, and I should see a psychiatrist again.
$900 out of pocket to see the first psychiatrist, probably a couple of hundred to try medication for depression and ADHD, lots of learned helplessness and valuable time lost… and now even more money down the drain. The price gouging is insane, exploiting people who are struggling and in need of answers. I’ve also heard of people who got a diagnosis, and somehow they’ve missed bipolar disorder when taking their hx, and oop, they’ve ended up with stimulant-induced psychosis.
I went to the optometrist last year, who said I have a focusing problem with my eyes. Maybe that’s what it’s been this whole time.
It just makes me wonder if I should even bother trying meds, or if I should just give up. But I cannot keep maintaining the status quo, or I will be giving up on life.