idk, something about lyricists, novelists, and poets who speak to me feel so fucking intimate in a way that filmmakers don’t necessarily (despite film being my probably favorite medium). and as corny/cliche as it sounds coming from an internet commie cracker, death grips has maybe gotten me through more fuckshit than any other artist, despite my being a relatively recent fan/convert

i love a lot of david lynch’s work and his death has definitely made me sad. but it made me think on celebrity deaths and how much they usually effect me and i guess im usually not that impacted but…

if/when Ride from death grips goes honestly i think im gonna be fucked up on some deep fucking levels. may he live til his 90s, despite being a smoker and (rumor has it) enjoyer of other substances that arent amazing for life expectancy…

all wifeguys are loverboys but not all loverboys are wifeguys

im a downwardly mobile upperish middle class white boy w/ a relatively generous generational wealth safety net and yet one of the few things i hate with all of my heart, the thing that i hate in this world more than anything, is the eldritch abomination bloodsoaked rabid dog that is the american empire. idk what that says about anything. maybe that most people have a soul and are therefore reachable w/ the right information.

the handful of days between nail painitings i werewolf transform back into a he/him (and my he/him is the wolf form b/c men r FUCKIN DAWGS!!! (last 4 words of that sentence in new yawk accent))

if i take a while to repsond to DMs dont worry it’s not you it’s my avoidance issues it triggers my vulnerability ick/fear response a bit, i will get to it when the right moment of peace and calm shows itself <3

idk just sent a sequence of texts across the week and they made an offhand comment that made me think it was too much maybe and maybe i was being too pushy about getting thme involved in some volunteer stuff? but it seemed like stuff they were genuinely interested in so i really just meant to be attentive and helpful/engaged in our friendship.

there’s also a 70 percent chance this shit mostly in my head aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

lmfao MTA adding spikes to the fucking turnstiles, getting priced out of that shithole was the biggest blessing in disguise i ever got i stg. outer boroughs have their charms but midtown manhattan and the financial district are genuinely top 5 loci of the dark powers, fucking psychic damage equivalent of walking through a dark souls poison swamp

anti-life ass borough jfc

!!! comrade :') !!!

guys do you think u/soylentsnake has abandonment issues or smthing???

scared that one of my two new bonds of love & friendship is going to flake off/get cold feet abt staying in touch and that i came across overbearing inadvertently in a way that scared them off i might be wrong but it sucks cuz im really fond of this person

taking a chance on new bonds of friendship is great and all but it suuuuuuuure does trigger deep seated insecurities and primal anxieties w/in the dark recesses of my heart…

me in 2014: rust cohle is literally me

me in 2018: man i was cringe back then

me in 2025: rust cohle post near-death experience is literally me

immense shout out to exmilitary by death grips for helping me through two (2!) back to back panic attacks on public transit this morning

sending a massive payload of parasocial love to my reclusive homie stefan burnett

if ur aura is both nurturing & protective of those close to u ngl that shit is lit

s/o to every1 deeply attuned to both their own internal landscapes as well as the emotional states & needs of others

if ur open and loving and unafraid to be vulnerable i fw u

sensitive reflective souls my ride or dies

if you were a moderately good looking person in a moderately cool city when tinder first hit the market, you body count tended to be WAY higher than most people.

this makes sense actually, i shacked up w/ someone i met from work just as tinder was becoming a thing & became single again post pandemic lockdowns and my number of partners is close to average, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay lower than most of my friends.

<---- me when im forced to choose between the rascal community & the loverboy community…