I had a little difficulty understanding the story, but aside from of course not knowing you nor your age or English even being my first language I think I get the gist.
Yeah, for like 30 years one small thing could ruin my day. I left that mostly behind me but I think wanting to avoid this is one of the big reasons for unhealthy masking. Luckily I’m older now, found out I’m an Autist and simply don’t gaf at many times.
The situation can still be hard.













Erm, low self esteem is the main issue of narcissists. So, yes, they feel that too much.