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21 hours agoi thought i was really gonna miss having gargantuan pockets when i moved to more femme clothing, but honestly i love having a silly little handbag so much.
amy_jmayday [she/her]
i play video games and have anxiety 
dm me if you want idk
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Cake day: December 14th, 2024
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i’ve got my fingers crossed that it’ll somehow end up with some kind of a switcheroo and canada ends up annexing the us, and then at least there’s health care probably.
i knew i was cooked when 0 wasn’t shorts and tshirt weather anymore
getting compliments on my look in ffxiv is perhaps more euphoric to me than is reasonable
it’s a miracle druids in fantasy settings ever get anything done. why are they running around doing all sorts of things when they could just turn into a bear and chill?
i really like fruity teas, there are good blackberry and raspberry ones!
family stuff
family’s christmas party was today. it went really well! i had been very nervous, the last time we had gotten together my mother had a lot of trouble with my name and misgendering, but we had A Talk about it and she really seems to have taken it to heart and didn’t deadname or misgender me once today! i also got to give my sister’s wonderful cats many pets. seems i was nervous for nothing o_o;
fwiw
i’ve only been here for like a week so it’d be ridiculous for me to expect to already feel or be ingrained in the space… but i definitely feel the not really knowing how to proceed. both off and online social bonds and connections always just kinda happened around me, i kinda just got pulled in by proximity, so i also don’t really feel i ever got those skills of building new bonds. the reason i’m here is because i don’t really have community elsewhere in a time where i really need it. i never ever really did reddit or tumblr or anywhere else so the ecosystem as a whole is kinda foreign to me, or what i’m even expecting here. i just kinda post and hope i’m maybe helpful or not interrupting and maybe i won’t eternally exude that I’m New Here o_o;
idk if i have a point… maybe like, not really understanding where or how to fit in in a space, even if your brain is maybe like “you should belong and feel safe in this space,” isn’t a crazy feeling? it’s an okay feeling to have?
idk if that’s helpful or even cogent at all… feeling like a drifting rando solidarity i guess? o_o;
5·24 days agoflat 60… that’s passing, right? D’s get degrees?
a real turnaround for me was when i realized that being very tall with linebacker shoulders just means i get to be an amazing butch lesbian
i didn’t start hrt until well into my adulthood and well after i figured out i’m trans, and it was one of the best feelings i’ve had and the mental changes were almost immediate. after starting i did have a couple weeks of what i guess i’d call “brain fog” (which i’d get each time i’d up my dose :/ ), but after that i really felt at home in my body for the first time.
i had pretty severe problems with dissociation prior to starting hrt that are pretty much gone, and every feeling is much more vibrant and feels much more like Me. it’s not something that eliminated my anxiety or depression, but it did make them addressable for the first time, and even feeling Bad in a body that feels like my own is preferable (at least for me) to feeling Good in a body that doesn’t.
it’s something i couldn’t recommend more and i really hope you’re able to start!
very mild injury mention
rediscovering the joy of model making (accidentally knifing myself when my hand slips while struggling to do a conversion i thought was gonna be fun and easy)
don’t worry the glue on my fingers sealed the cut up immediately -_-;