I try my best, but it’s a bummer to then have flares and so on and I end up hospitalized and I can’t continue on what I was doing. Sometimes I just want to relax, when I felt well-being after a long time just suffering I literally cried of happiness and just enjoyed that.
Tutanota for max security (no imap/pop3 support). Other services for using IMAP/POP3. But really, you shouldn’t be using email anyway if your goal is max security and privacy, simplex.chat is better for that.