

I have stopped using booking.com and a few other sites like this because of similar issues. The last time I went thru them they have used an incorrect name on the reservation and it took weeks of phone calls to get the hotel to refund the reservation. I was in a position where I either got a refund and rebooked or showed up and was turned away. It sucked. Never again.
Please seek counseling.
And I know you don’t know me, but if you were to walk past me or my family, you’ll receive no judgment from us. We love you all the same. But please do seek counseling. There are many of us out there who love you.