I wanna finish my memoir before I die… don’t wanna like die from a random car accident… that’d be lame as fuck…
Or worse yet, getting like amnesia or something…
So the universe is trolling. Either you have suicidal thoughts or you have death anxiety… 🫠

i eventually came to a point at which i care about making appointments with the dentist regularly. (not good care, but you know). it was a long way since i started the process of “ok let’s try this living for a while, what needs to change to make it viable?”
of course this didn’t look nearly as optimistic in the beginning. it was rather doomy. but there is a place for all of us, and there are people that can help finding it. my anxiety is still with me but i can manage it better, i feel. i’m glad you got on the way. :)
Yeah I’m just getting back to the point where it seems like a good idea to start making doctor/dentist appointments again, but after neglecting my health (physical,mental,dental) for like 15 years it makes it extra hard to take those first steps. A part of me was hoping I wouldn’t live long enough for it to matter, but now I just know that I need to take steps to minimize my suffering in the future or things will just keep getting worse.