this and more vicious self-owns, only in this incredible grass-toucher post (again)
I used to have irl friends but they all turned out to be horrible people or libs or whatever, I used to have leddit but leddit is fucking poisonous, I used to have discord servers and shit but I tend to pass into and out of discord groups with worrying ease, also I cant stop saying “another kkkracka down” at grampa’s funeral
now I have bear website and it’s the place I want to talk, what the fuck else even is there? where else would even tolerate me? any attempt to reach out and join communities or groups anywhere would probably result in critical psychic damage, also I still will not go into the queer center in town, what the fuck
bear website is the only spot where talking to people has a decent chance of not being a painful affair
hexagonal ursine webzone
I’m in my 40s, I have zero friends and haven’t had any for over 30 years. Acquaintances come and go but no long lasting friendships. It usually ends up a disaster any time I have put myself out there to have people outright ignore or avoid me so I stopped and don’t plan or try anymore. I have social anxiety enough it can affect me online in that I go months lurking and talking to nobody. I sit and read conversations to sate any kind of interaction. I doubt anything can change at this point and I’ve lost all will to anymore.
Acquaintances do be coming and going, I’ve passed through like nine or ten different social circles in seven or eight years…