To me, everything has, like, a correct feeling it has to give before leaving it to rest. If not, it’s a little too rough, or smooth, it just feels off. And I can keep feeling it after stopping touching it. And anytime I look at the object. I can feel it when I watch a movie or show and someone puts something down in some indescribably wrong way.

To be clear, this isn’t a placement thing. Organization and whatnot don’t matter, it’s just like “Oh my foot just dragged forward on the carpet, that was weird and rough forward, now I have to do it backward to make it feel right,” or “I just put that down and from the sound, I can tell it went down wrong. I gotta go adjust it.” That loops until I get it just right, usually a process of 2-45 minutes.

  • _____@lemm.eeEnglish
    3·
    9 hours ago

    100%

    for me it’s about mental state. I always want to tackle things while knowing my mental state.

    for instance in work weeks I never get hammered because I know the next day I’ll have to do work in an office state. same thing with gaming I have to be fully lucid and ready or caffeinated.

    if I’m not in any of those moods for me the off mood default activity is cleaning up shit, for some reason it resets me completely and lets me move on to the activity I actually wanna do

    (not officially ND or diagnose, and tbh I’m not 100% sure I’m ND I just don’t feel NT)

  • Zoop@beehaw.orgEnglish
    8·
    17 hours ago

    Yes!! To all of it! I feel so much less alone! And you described it SO WELL!!

    Do you ever get that feeling with vocalizing words or sounds, too? Like I have to keep trying until I get it ‘right’

    I always thought it sounded like a possible OCD type of thing to me. I can’t remember it, but there was a certain ‘type’ of OCD that it seemed like. I’ll have to see if I can remember or find it. (No promises, though… I’ve got some intense brain fog & stuff gumming up my brain right now.)

    Edit: I actually remembered! Look up “just right OCD”

    "The compulsions associated with this subtype of OCD primarily consist of redoing/repeating actions in order to dispel the “not right” feelings and allow the person to feel as though the task was completed the “right” way. "

    My phone is being screwy or I’d send some links, my apologies! Hopefully that helps you somehow.

    • MagicalusOPEnglish
      7·
      15 hours ago

      I absolutely do the vocal thing! For me it happens with sentences, where I’ll cut myself off and restart because I want to change the last few words, and even though the start of the sentence will be the same it just feels wrong.

      Nice to know I’m not alone, thanks! Hope to see ya around the Fediverse!