I already told you how it all started in my previous posts, but now it’s different because I started having sex with him, before he only gave me blowjobs and now I started fucking his ass. I have to admit that it’s a very nice thing to do, I’ve never fucked a butt before, I’ve always fucked pussies.
and I’m a little confused, because it started for money [not counting the jerk off we did in college watching porn] and I feel absolutely nothing for him other than friendship and brotherhood, he doesn’t attract me at all but I enjoy fucking him, although it’s not as satisfying as doing it with a woman.
and I realized that what I enjoy is having a man on a par dominated and in my power. that makes me horny and I don’t know why.
I mean power is attractive, you don’t have to wonder anymore why so many people spend their lives chasing it, you’re experiencing it yourself.
Sounds to me like you’re bi, just with a strong preference to women. I think most bisexuals lean one direction or the other, me included.
But yeah, could still also just be the power thing, fucking a hole simply feels nice for the penis, doesn’t really matter which hole if you’re not prejudiced.
Edit: but also after going through your profile, you spend so much time and energy talking about it, thinking about it, the whole thing seems pretty clear to me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ that’s for you to hash out though, whatever you feel is valid.