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“Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.”

Relating this phrase to the fact that Autism is a permanent disability which causes endless, and various problems.

Genuinely nothing helps. nobody has ever wanted to support me and so then I exhaust myself trying to do it all alone.

I’ve given up on so many things. my social needs. my career goals. my desire for and enjoyment of challenge.

being “seen” and “heard” and “understood” sound like fantasies.

I’m so exhausted, and also depressed. therapy doesn’t help at all. it’s totally useless. yes i’ve tried many different ones. no, none of them help. they seem to have the skills to help, but don’t really want to for the most important, pressing issues. even if i articulate that very clearly, and multiple times! only the neurotypical forces that be know why.

I’m so tired of being disrespected and not realizing how or why until hours or even days later. i’m so tired of being interpreted incorrectly no matter how hard i try. i’m so tired of working for literally three hours and being incapacitated the rest of the day. i’m tired of getting ignored and cut off the second i open my mouth in a group convo, or feeling like im going to throw myself off a cliff from how fucking boring they are bc the only “right thing” to say is one which is easily digestible and affirms what everyone is already saying.

I’m mostly exhausted from the complete and utter lack of support. why? because i’m not “saying it the right way”? because i’m “the weird one” who has no business complaining bc they’re subhuman and animals don’t get to complain?

I hate being told in therapy, by therapists who dismiss things i actually would like to work on, to go to meetup.com.

I hate people. i really do. they’re so fucking mean and for genuinely no reason. even if you’re minding all the social cues, they clock that you’re different, slow, naive, etc, and target you. why the fuck would i want to interact with them?

I am so depressed and alone and i am simply used to it now. i cannot connect with anyone for the life of me. i swear to god i’m not being an asshole, i’m trying so hard to just be kind and get along with people.