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Ok ok ok ok but the thing about No One On Earth is that its probably about aliens or someone rolling on MDMA pretty hard but it can also be about a pet getting adopted if you think about it a little.

Knitting circles can get kinda nasty sometimes but in a “Mean Girls” way not a nazi way.

Merry (the war on) Christmas everypony!

I like doing these, can I have another?

Its just concept art and the final product will likely be totally different from this, but it doesnt look all that different from other modern surface ships. More importantly it looks like the box art for a toy warship lmao. They should keep the giant painting of him striking that dumbass pose he did after that guy shot at him.

Oh hey I got a 3.73 this semester, nice.

Oh and energy bars aren’t “cheating” though they are expensive and can be of dubious nutritional value.

Quick rolled oats with brown sugar, a pinch of salt, and dried apple chunks. Pour in boiling water, mix, and go do other things for 15 minutes while it hydrates. You can also toss in protein powder if you like. Alternatively, leftovers are also a good choice if its quick, understanding that “food x is for time y” is mostly just a cultural convention will set you free.

I’m not sure, but the discomfort youre describing might be solved by having the last meal of your day earlier and getting used to having breakfast. Might be an interaction with medications?

Here’s a nice little article about the illustrator (Stephen Biesty) and his greater body of work.

There were copies in some of the local libraries and we must have checked it out a dozen times when I was a kid. It is very suprising to find just how weak the secondhand market is for these, listings are sparse and very expensive compared to other popularish childrens books of its age.

Friends, shortly after I posted my last trans mega I took a big hit to my mental wellbeing and as a result of this I had little desire to POAST alongside you all. This of course is not an issue as there is no obligation to POAST, however I was presented with many chances to talk about one of my favorite musical acts (Above & Beyond) and I did not take any of them. I never get a chance to talk about OceanLab or Above & Beyond.

Low key mad about that.

Anyways, in reply to a comment by @Red_Eclipse@hexbear.net I have this to say:

YES!!! Bigger Than All Of Us was wonderful! It didn’t beat Group Therapy for me but it didn’t dissapoint by any means. What gets me about the new album is the “character” played by Robert Bedford in contrast to the characters played by Zoe Johnston and Justine Suissa. Bedford’s voice sounds older, almost tired, and his songs are about what his songs were about 10+ years ago, failed and toxic relationships. Suissa and Johnston don’t sound all that different (though Suissa’s voice has taken on a timbre that is just gorgeous) but the lyrics in those songs seem to be from the perspective of people who have settled down and/or have kids. Not sure if that contrast is there intentionally or if that’s just my interpretation. Like you mentioned, Above & Beyond have an incredible taste in vocalists, Johnston being my favorite of their frequent collaborators. She brings a surreal and unearthly, at times eerie vibe to club music that I really fuck with. Case in point being Gabriel and Dresden’s remix of No One On Earth.

Up with trans!

oops, forgot to include the brain massager and the one thats supposed to cause panic attacks or something idk it makes me feel normal because im so dArK aNd TwIsTeD iNsIdE

I am going to shamelessly promote myNoise.net, which is a superFuckinCool website with a gazillion different noise machines and a lot of different options. It feels like a relic of the old internet, lots of personality and some very clean, modern design. The guy who runs it makes these soundscapes for a living, just going around recording sounds and turning them into this.

Its got normal stuff like white noise, rain, waves on a beach, and babble (plus restaurant sounds, which can be turned on or off). Theres some wierd ones like the inside of a WW2-era bomber, a brain massager, and like fifty automatic music generators like this one called Shroom with a View. Some of my favorites are behind the paywall ($10 donation for lifetime access, just saying) so I can’t share them but theres a haunted house, a construction site, an alchemy lab, and a S.T.A.L.K.E.R. themed one.

Also there’s a mobile app but I dont really use it and cant say much about it other than donating to one doesn’t give you full access on the other.

Do the volunteers also get gear discounts the way contractors and employees do? My [REDACTED] who works for [REDACTED] at [REDACTED] National Park gets like 60% off boots at this one place.

Came here to say this. The internet has been instrumental in helping many people to understand their own queerness and this kind of access restriction is going to hurt a lot of people.

The northrop one was a space rocket lauch. It was kinda cool to watch until it became apparent that it was promoting slaughtertech. The border patrol thing was something with an ambiguously hispanic looking man with a stalwart expression riding a horse in the desert. The sound was off so I cant comment on that part. Between them was a rather violent looking ad for the game fortnite, it all felt very facistic and grim.

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Did you see the ones for Northrop Grumman and the border patrol? The burger reich is real

Hi, I don’t want to cause a fight but “get injections and go straight to monotherapy” is not good advice to give to someone looking for a place to start.

There are a variety of options when it comes to feminizing HRT and the reality is that it comes down to preference and one’s ability to regularly administer dosages. Injections can be intimidating, uncomfortable, and deliver less consistent levels than pills would, pills don’t require sharps and are generally more available. There is this mystique around injections, they’re sexy in a way but they’re not meaningfully more effective in delivering results than other methods and may be worse in some ways. Spironolactone is… fine? Like really its fine, as long as you don’t have any preexisting kidney or liver conditions its fine. You’re definitely going to pee more often and some people report “brain fog” but your mileage will vary on that. To me, starting spiro felt like waking up for the first time in decades. The other thing about spiro is that it works in a very wonky way so blood testosterone levels aren’t a great indication of how well its working.

That being said, there are other antiandrogens out there, and its your right as a person to try things out and see what works best for you. Transfeminine science has a very good introduction to feminizing HRT and I highly recommend reading it as well as the rest of the website. Those girls do good work. There is also a fun simulator that plots out a rough estimate of estrogen levels with different medications. Regarding actually getting HRT, independent journalist Erin Reed maintains a map of informed consent clinics that you may find useful if you haven’t found a place for that yet. Planned Parenthood clinics offer gender affirming care and also have a sliding scale for how much they’ll charge you.

Frankly, its going to take time to get comfortable presenting as oneself. There’s a lot said about the “embracing the new” aspect of transitioning and the “discarding the old” part gets talked about much less, and the absence of the old can be much more uncomfortable than the presence of the new. I really hope that made sense. I am very tired. Be patient with yourself and hold faith in what the future has in store for you. The process of bodily feminization is glacial, agonizingly so, and it comes in spurts too. I promise that one day you’ll look in the mirror, and as though by magic you’ll see her there for the first time. The details like makeup and mannerisms and clothes and hair and all that will come to you eventually, it takes a little effort, and quite a bit of trial and error. You’d be surprised to find just how many people are willing to help a trans woman get oriented in these matters.

I have no idea where to put this part, so I’m putting it here. You should read this comment. The book Inanna, Lady of Largest Heart is wonderful and you owe it to yourself to go read it, or at least chapter nine, the linked comment mentions where to find it but if you want, DM me and I’ll email it to you lmao. It is an incredibly powerful thing to see oneself in the words of a woman who lived five thousand years before you were even born.

In case no one has said this already, I’m so fucking proud of you. Yeah sure we’re strangers but from what you’ve said here I can tell that you are already a very, very strong woman*. Thank you for finding it in you to persist and find this courage.

(If “woman” is not how you label your gender identity I deeply apologize and wish to correct myself.)