im year on estrogen lol, and mom not against it here is more about expression, social role

meow meow

im always hated moscow i hate this megapolis

bashkortostan and in young city in the north borders with udmurtia(try to find on openstreetmaps)

moscow is stupid putin dick lickers i seen videos from moscow from tatar-bashkort and many moscowians nazi bullying them thinking that they from middle east or armenia georgia but THEY BORN IN RUSSIA IN RUSSIAN ETHIC GROUP

and even video with semi passable women to the whole runet that she trans that is bad in moscow but i think just women with trouble passing

st petersburg i dont like climate anyway i hate megapolises

honestly i think it safe enough here and i ~passing so no problems

want i leave russia? honestly no i dont fucking care in which govrenment i live

parents are supportive, with hrt, ok with transitioning after social problems such as school, and some other

my mom bought and chosen women jacket for me by herself, and omg its soo light and comfy have enough space in hips and overall look good, she said to try pink hoddie stayed in the fitting room before us

they ok with name change

being independently from them is lose hrt “sponsor” :3

also they avoiding deadname, and gendered words like son, etc but still doesnt gender me as girl and honestly i dont care much because there no triggers like son deadname etc

also do women & girls in your area wear hyperfem clotches like dresses, skirts? in my area I VERY RARELY see women wearing dress or skirt especially young

so im also didnt want them

heh im venting here now because my psychotherapy start only from next week and then every week

ty awoawooaowoao

they tired of cuddles and kisses

when im will same!?!!?!

rate my painting

year of hell either all life dysphoria hell in men body

definitly better survive one year of hell

and parents supportive also now becayse they see i feel MUCH better

dysphoria was very hard before

even my country regime did better with transphobic law to start DIY not waiting 256356 years with doctors to get “offical way”, honestly i made huge research and im better than some endos now,one con of law that im cant put new gender market now but i dont care i can change name to Avery Erin because it gender neutral

also i have similar feet of dad sister her is 39-40 EU, my shoe size 40-41 EU mine larger due flat feet but not androgen expouse, my dad is ~43 also on hrt feet became feminine and smaller old shoes sits too freeit was 41 EU ALSO it changed the angle in x ray now it more “healthy” my mom shoe size is 36 EU (is too small for 160 cm… often she hard to find right shoe because is more child) interesting but all my female relatives ~160 cm height dad is 177 cm

dad sister really have unhealthy weight we are similar height and im also same pre hrt, pre psych pills now im ok face shape is something similar to dad side female relatives

my mom didnt have body hair at all until hormonal disbalance high DHT, 2 nmol T and im doesnt have at all even after super high T and DHT

interesying but after hrt i rarely feel cold, usually more warm on high testosterone i feel more cold, in childhood also feel more warm

also my mom complexed in teen ages about breast size

its short version…

also forget to tell i was harrased on the first attempt of hrt in 2024, by mom brother liters of men sweat, men strengh, men men men, he wanted to fix me but made worse said to the ear that im dont right that is not from good life etc plus they called police then ambulance to give some shit injection to me

oh, i want glasses because stylish and doc A LONG TIME AGO said i should wear special glasses for astigmatism what she found(idk i have GOOD vision so weak astigmatism but worried what if it become worse)

interesting how the lens for astigmatism look

unlike many stereotypes about russian psych hospitals mine was okay, young doctors, they dont pressed me, just asking questions and gave working pills, and even friendly patiens mostly they attemped suicide or selfharm and was okay

but rules are terrible, time was hard to pass, soviet books either television

but doctor in private clinic which put me my mom since 02.07.24 was terrible stereotypal soviet doc with “30 years experience” which put me to hospital from him private clinic at 26.11.24

also 2024 was diagnostics diagnostics by mom, MRI, bloodwork, ultrasound, psychatrist, psychologist(which give me schizophrenia after 15 min) and many other

im saved my life by not afraid by DIY HRT at all

im egg cracked at end of 14yo then make ultimatum hrt as soon as possible or $uicide
then at 15yo, coming out 21.06.24, wars with mom, i tried to start first at 28.07.24 but failed because of mom, my mom even wanted to su!cide because im trans…

major dissociation depression

then infinite wars with mom two antipsychptics which made me close up to brain damage it was terrible ADHD-like state, akathesia, tremor, etc then psychosis because of antipsychotics then psychiatric hospital then new pills saved me and fixed my sociaphobia with mom and gave hypomania which was very useful and im opened fully to my mom and get on hrt 28.03.25

hopefully i dont get any changes from test0st!rone in this hard gap

2024 was terrble and hard but it we need strengh to survive

what lens on the glasses that make face more smaller?(on the sides)

omg so cool! i need also make my timeline

tyyyyy mrrrr :3