I literally got it from a famous trans author who is an anarchist and makes this stuff with her DIY collective and she offered me hormones and I was like all hemming and hawing on signal and shit but I said yes, why would I not, I have so many indications that I am not cis. It is supposed to be good for 10 months, this vial. But I am scared, I have never injected anything except for my GF’s GLP-1 agonist for her. Also I don’t know if I am a woman! I think I am not a guy, but I would rather be without gender! I want my pretty eyes to be focused on my GF’s as I use a strap on her, my cock has always been pretty useless anyway. I kinda have tits already a little without any hormones, like I might have gynecomastia a little and I kinda love it. I want them to be bigger. But do I talk to a therapist about this shit? I feel like they are just gonna gaslight gatekeep girlboss give me spiro and estradiol pills, when I have the girly juice injectable right here with me. I want to be a butch lesbian, I have always thought of myself as a “male lesbian” liking women in a gay way as well as wanting to top and suck off penis havers too, I am a pan service top for all genders and I want to have titties too. I guess I could just see how my body responds to it. I am still kinda wonderin though. I was allowed to be genderqueer as a child in the 1990s but I was genderqueer as a child in the 1990s and my first friends didn’t understand that I thought I was a boy even though I was wearing a pink cute dress like the other 5 year old girls, and then I was so traumatized by that day that I only remember crying and asking my parents to get me shorts “like the boys” and that magnet kindergarten was the crucible in which shame over myself and my gender and my ability to detect people trying to lie to me and take advantage of me (those pokemon card trades/ethics governing them really stick with a bitch!!) was forged. So yeah IDK if I am a woman but I am not a cruel shitty boring cis white man, I have never been that even though society projected that on me and punished me for not living up to the standards they set. Fuck that. I won’t be a failed, sad man. I should be a happy nonbinary thing. Or a woman. IDK. Not a man though.

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    I am very curious to hear which countries you think qualify…

    I might even consider moving to one of them, but somehow I doubt you can name three, even if I’m generous in what I’m going to accept.

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      At the very least the Scandinavian countries. (Norway, Denmark, Sweden, Finland)

      HRT is essentially free through a single payer system with slightly different physicians evaluations. Though as with all care within such a system there’s a queue, or you can pay a private clinic to get it done pretty much right away and w/o evaluations.

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        At the very least the Scandinavian countries. (Norway, Denmark, Sweden, Finland)

        LOL! They are all dogshit!

        You really demonstrate the point well that you have no fucking clue about the topic. Like: I know several Danish trans girls, and IIRC every single one felt the need to DIY at some point, because of how badly the system was failing them.

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          I’ve many “fucking clues” about the topic, particularly relating to the Swedish healthcare system, albeit from a different perspective - it was literally my job.

          Please be civil and respectful if you want the discussion to continue. I’m here to be constructive, not get into arguments.

          How’d they feel that the Danish healthcare system was failing them?

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            For starters with the abysmal waiting times, which are frankly inexcusable and scientifically unjustifiable considering the well-established fact that informed consent works. There is precisely no reason why trans people should have to wait longer than diabetes-patients to get treatment, quite the opposite in fact, considering that HRT can easily be prescribed by GPs. Yet the waiting lists in all of those countries are longer than for pretty much any other treatment.

            Then we have the incompetent selection of anti-androgens. Cypro is admittedly much better than Spiro, but properly scheduled injections of GNRH-agonists are much better and not done there. In exchange a friend of mine there who did trust her physicians at the time ended up unintentionally driving her cat insane, because nobody bothered to mention to her, that she shouldn’t touch other people or animals for 1-2 hours after application. Of course E is also only handed out as pills or sometimes as gel, because nobody can be arsed to prescribe injections, which would turn taking it into a weekly thing when talking about EEn.

            I can’t really comment on the quality of surgeries, once they happen, because in practice you seem to wait for them until you are old. Probably because all the surgeons prefer to do knee-surgeries with their 30% regret-rate…

            Now few of these things are specific, most of them hold in most countries that claim to offer trans healthcare, most notably the inexcusable waiting lists, but the Scandinavian countries are certainly not better. And that is before we get into all the bullshit about forcing trans kids to go through puberty because right-wing assholes keep attacking access to healthcare for minors, despite indisputable scientific evidence that this healthcare is necessary. And yes, that very much includes Sweden!