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On this mega I shall take the opportunity to rant about one of my favorite things: the Webnovel UNJUST DEPTHS!
Do you love transgenders?
Do you love communism?
Do you love queer romance?
Do you love killing fascists in a giant fucking mech?
Would a plotline with all of these things happening in a underwater retro-futuristic gundam setting intrigue you?
Especially if its actually really well written with good characters, rich worldbuilding, and a marxist leninist transfem author?
All of the answers should be: YES I DO or else I WILL BAN YOU
Since you obviously love all of those things then Unjust Depths is perfect for YOU yes YOU! It is DESTINY
The Imbrian Ocean is at a time of severe instability. The monarch of the vast Empire that spans its unjust depths (:3) is sick and nearing death, every territory of the ocean now vying to carve their own Destiny out of the chaos. From the Volk fascists 
, Zionists 
(they literally will not die why are they still here oh my god), The ‘Anarchists’ (social chauvanists) 
in Bosporus, and the monarchs 
of each vast noble domain, each vies for power and prestige no matter who they crush underfoot, but it would be a pretty depressing story without a bright light in the dark.
On the edge of the Empire sits the glorious Union! The (Soviet) Union 
is a socialist federation of three states (and one anarchist mountain 
)that were formerly slave colonies under the Imbrian Empire until they broke away in a fierce liberation war. They have spent the last 20 years since then building themselves up. Whether they be Human 
, Shimmi 
(Catgirls who usually follow a religion closely related to modern Islam), and Kattaran 
(a hybrid humanoid species with characteristics of sea life ranging from sharks to cuttlefish)building socialism side by side.
First lead under the revolutionary leader Dashka Kansal, then the Idealist Ahwalia who lead the country to near ruin in pursuit of building a utopia on pillars of sand, then under the scientific socialist 
leadership of the Grand Marshall of the Union, Bhavani Jayanskar (I love Jayanskar so much shes basically as if Stalin, Lenin, and Zhukov were rolled into the same person but was a black lesbian badass who wore the uniform REALLY WELL)(she aint the main character at all tho shes only in very few scenes i just love her so much). Under Jayanskar, the Union has been growing their economy to both eliminate hunger and give everyone a home 
, but also growing their military capabilities for the inevitable return of the Empire. The Union is alone, but with the people by its side nothing, not even Destiny, can snuff out true freedoms light. 
As war wages between the Empire and Republic (basically underwater USA) once more over the lands between them, the facade begins to finally crack…
And a border conflict between the Empire and Union escalate, and the dreaded reconquest begins.
Amidst this turmoil, lives our main characters (yes there are multiple and all of them are lovely). Each of whom I personally love dearly, and are very well characterized. Many are soldiers of the Union, some are scientists, some are divers (mech pilots), some are lost strands finding new meaning after joining this band of Brigands
All are Communists 
All serve the Union 
All would gladly give their lives to defending socialism 
but even they would have little inkling of the adventure set in store for them as the lands beneath the waves erupt in fire, fury, and revolt
Can these transgender badasses kick fascist ass?
Can they kiss? (oh my god please kiss ISTG THERE IS SO MUCH SHIPPING AHHHH ITS GLORIOUS)
FIND OUT HERE: https://unjustdepths.com/
please do or else I will pout incessantly
just try it pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase i need to talk to someone about it after Cromalin went AFK
(I miss her, she was a real one)
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waow....
Okay cool, very nice, glad to help you get all of that out then honestly ✨ I’d voice objections (if I had any) but I tend to reserve incredibly rude shit for like, lemmitors lol. Also I’m pretty sure all this (behind spoilers, not awoogabrained) is above board for the trans mega. If you could learn something from the silly internet site that would be rad.
Oh
Well that explains a lot, I think if I had been caught doing anything as a kid I woulda quit, my condolences.
Ugh I hate that it’s like this, things like this are why I’m so against “cringe” as a concept, like literally shaming someone for being dorky and having crushes on characters… why though? What possible reason? Is that bad? (it isn’t) Shaming people over stuff like this is loser shit 99% of the time.
Blegh, yeah I’ve been there. For me, I figure if I have no interest in it now, I’m not convinced it’s worth it getting everything below the belt reconfigured just for that. I have a bunch of other reasons I’m not into bottom surgery but y’know.
Ah I see, I misunderstood, mb. I think having something be your own like that is probably pretty good. Regarding emotional intimacy, yeah same, I only trust my wife basically. Despite being a yapper online I don’t really know anybody irl, blegh. And I can agree that it feels weird trying to draw the line between friendship and relationship, there are people who cuddle their friends for e.g., but who knows what any given person thinks right? Kind of have to ask, and that could be fuckin devastating easily…
Hmmmm, but that’s so based though, darn… I’m noticing that finding out your needs is a common throughline, not just for you but for lots of people, and is goddamn annoying. Since I’m dead curious though, do you know your safe partner’s temperature on that kinda stuff? Have you poked around about that much?
Also your partner seems kinda based, Idk
gettin some good vibes.
I swear we need a People’s Vanguard that just beats people to death with hammers for shit like this. I get that sometimes if someone dumps a bunch of emotions on you it can feel like too much, but “creepy”? I would simply not be mean to autistic effusive dorks, perhaps I am built different. Finding friends that make the protective part of you chill the hell out would be rad though.
You’re welcome!! I like when I can go back and forth with huge, basically infodumps about personal stuff, I like knowing things abt people I guess. It’s a lil special to me, I think. Again I’m glad to hear you feel comfortable getting all this stuff out and that you feel very seen, you should probably talk tomore neurodiverse queers honestly. Hopefully it takes you less than 100 more posts to get to the bottom of this ✨
how did it get so long again...
glad to hear it! i appreciate people being direct about their needs and wants. i know i’m not always direct due to trauma and shit, and i wouldn’t be surprised if most people with our kind of life experience struggle too with it too, but reading you write “be assertive with me!!!” really kinda inspired me to be more honest. it’s been difficult for me to open up and even disagree with people haha so this is a Big Deal.
haha yep, still struggle with it. found out my dad used to crossdress though thanks to that, the most awkward conversation of my fucking life.
yeah cringe as a concept is something i want to stop caring about - i want to lean into the cringe until i stop caring tbh
totally fair, tbh i still feel like i’m on the fence, i get very scared reading about regrets about surgery and the after work, but i just hate seeing that bulge. (do i hate it because of dysphoria or cis-heteronormativity?)
tbh when magi said similar, I’ve been thinking really hard about whether I want irl people because of societal expectations or because of some unmet need. It’s totally valid to not want to be around people irl, like even i see my friends once every 2 months lol for board games and i would understand someone wanting even less than that, or none at all.
but, for me, i worry about not having a support network if i need it, and so i want people that i have a fair relationship with (oh man, yes there’s a lot to unpack here on my concepts of “fairness” in relationships lol but that’s its own post). i also want to know that i can call on people if i need to chat or for help, and … well, i like to take care of and help the people i care about too. i’m not sure if that necessitates irl relationships though
damn this is confusing
yeah i did that once, and got ghosted for it, lol. i think i just won’t approach the subject with allistics anymore, especially since honestly i’m not even sure if i want that, haha. maybe i just want to be in the same room, you know, and irl i’d actually be like “no touchie tyvm.” hard to say for sure until i try anything, and it’s probably highly dependent on the person too haha. (i guess i am very catlike) plus i have someone i can cuddle with literally whenever, i’m pretty conflicted about all of that.
so i actually just asked him about this - i asked him if he believes in the concept of “emotional cheating” and he said “no, but wait what is that? probably no though.” i attempted to describe how i feel when i feel positive feelings about people and he was just like “no that’s not a problem, sometimes people will be closer to others at different times” lol. he’s great. but is that really “poly”? i’ve only heard the NT definition of it tbh, maybe my stuff doesn’t even fit, loads of people are super close with their friends, only redditors seem have a problem with that.
this was so relateable that i laughed out loud for some reason. that is exactly the feeling. i had someone call me “paranoid” a couple weeks ago when i said my phone has basically only open source software on it and for sure there was a week or two where i didn’t text her lol. did i shout at her? no. do i wish someone more word-competent and less conflict-adverse had assertive’d her for me? absolutely lmao. if we didn’t have so much shared history and i didn’t care about her well-being i probably would have just ghosted (this is bad of me, i know, i should tell people about these things, and to be fair i did try my best to display how her comment made me feel at the time), but we go way back.
he is so calm, all the time, it’s so nice
, i want to show him to everyone i meet and be like “see? look how cool he is!!! ask him about retro games!!!”
yeah, it’s a lot. i think my solution will probably just be to keep allistic people at a safe distance (which for the record i think is a standard NT disatance), and really only open up my soul to autistic people.
I hope I am the same too, but I’m worried that I’m not - I think my fears are likely unfounded though.
oh yes, this shit is my absolute jam. unfortunately my partner parses emotions quite slowly (relative to me) so he can’t keep up with the speed at which i generate opinions, but that’s why i’m here! i like knowing things about people too, i like to get deep into their thoughts and really understand different perspectives.
yeah agree, it’s helpful to hear a diversity of opinions here from the various people who hang in this thread, as a start. not sure where else to find them haha (i have low tolerance for lib spaces)
idk i’m autistic online too but i’m much more reserved in my opinions until someone prods me, but yeah i think i understand what you might be getting at - you’re just being yourself, right?
I opened this on my desktop PC and it overflows a 1080p monitor, lol lmao
I think most people in the west at least do, pretty traumatic society with traumatic norms. Death to amerikkka and all its allies btw!! I’m happy to hear my dumb idiot posting is inspiring though, good Big Deal!!
When ur cringe but free :3 it’s rad, defeating that kinda Rejection Sensitivity-esque response is hard but I like yapping a lot.
HEY! Quit looking into my brain!!!
Dunno about you but for me, I think I mostly don’t mind except for fashion, outfits. I wanna have a flat front for aesthetic reasons basically. So I should look into compression fits and tucking instead. It kinda scared me when I got on here and realised I mostly wanted bottom surgery for cisnormative binary reasons, my thinking got realigned thankfully.
Yeah I’m not sure, I have the desire for irl people but maybe not the aptitude. I might be better off on the internet, not as much stress or executive dysfunction involved. Not a lot of people treat that as viable though… “i worry about not having a support network if i need it,” I am so cooked lmao
Uh being catlike is based
I would hope not interacting with allistics as much would help, it does seem tough to parse though.
Okay yeah he is based, I like your guy. “see? look how cool he is!!! ask him about retro games!!!” You should probably do this tbh! But I have no fuckin idea what qualifies as poly and not, people are scary Idk
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preamble: sorry if i’m talking too much, i hope you will not hesitate to tell me if you want to pick this up another time! it’s also ok to reply later, tomorrow, etc., or just say one thing as well, all good
yep absolutely!!!
YEP, I WISH HE WOULD NOT TALK ABOUT THIS. he started talking to me about porn today and i was like ughhhhhhhh dad i am not ok with this wtf. i used to have intrusive thoughts about seeing him naked (NOT SV, just getting ready in the morning …), made me really squeamish about guydick for a while. (yikes I have not told anyone this before)
I haven’t looked too much into Rejection Sensitivity (have heard of it), but I think that it’s a good way to describe it. I have it really really bad, to the point where I think there are times when I run away from prospective relationships/friendships entirely before I can get rejected. I want to defeat it too. It’s hard, especially with new people. It helps to disappear, cry, and have Safe Partner tell me that I probably shouldn’t reject myself before people actually reject me. So uhh yeah that happened today anyway I feel better now.
I feel this, but there’s a couple other things for me as well, it just looks really out of place on me, and I usually have to tuck it between my legs to look at myself in the mirror, in the bath, etc. But, it can’t be that bad if I’ve held off 15 years, right? So conflicted.
yeah totes, it’s entirely possible I’ll end up in the same place, trying to claw back the referral that got sent out lol. Lucky Canada is Canada so I got loads of time, just sent it off a few weeks ago.
yes, I actually still feel this despite having irl friendships in the past, but I guess I can thank masking for that. even just on the internet I can get super stressed. I don’t really know what to do about it rather than just try to unmask more, push myself to ignore the
, and if people don’t like me they can stop responding ig. my best friends in my teen years were internet friends, i have very fond memories of chatrooms lol. i never cared where they were from or what they looked like, one of them got me into programming and that became my career (sorry if i’ve shared this already)
okay, so, i’ve given it a lot of thought, and my master plan is now to web search “trans communist (but good communists like the ones on bear site) autistic adults in my area” and like, refuse to meet them in person until i know they’re safe, after a good several years of text chat or something. i know there are hexbears in my city! i know the political climate here lol. we have fightback and cpc posters on the same telephone poles side by side lol
100%, talking to autistic people on this site is so much easier, i don’t have to constantly be searching for the secret unsaid truth and i can just read the text plainly.
yes, haha frick i am not sure any of this fancy irl relationship stuff is worth it lol. sorry you have to see me all back and forth, i’m very divided on it! (but I wouldn’t call what I’m looking for poly, just like… i want a Best Friend, you know?)
100%, this, based, exactly, tbh, tbh, tbh. we have a long history, but i want her to succeed at school now and she just moved here from Smaller And More Bigoted Town an hour away and of course I care about her, so I want to help out.
haha, i am not sure it’s worth explaining the real me to NTs (other than Safe Partner), a lot of tedious “no, not like that” and “no, i meant what I said…” I still like NTs and other kinds of NDs of course, a lot, but there’s a deeper connection imo that I can only really get with people like me fr fr.
yep!!!
tbh, i think my real self, unmasked, might be just as outspoken, but it’s too soon to tell :)
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The main thing I was finding was my wrists were getting tired, lol. New day new wrists!!!
No wtf? It’s not like going and getting vaginoplasty is easy, sheesh. Idk sounds to me like you have dysphoria around it, and if you could get something done abt it, that would be pretty cool. I do not tuck to look at myself in the mirror and stuff, lol. I dunno, y’know?
I wish I had a better solution than this but like, yeag… I dunno, again don’t push yourself too much. I did a LOT of yapping where nobody responds and it always felt terrible, sometimes still do lol. Chatroom friends are based, programming waow… I wish I was programming…
Haha would be nice, imagine that smh. I think I’m still in “wife is my best friend” town honestly. Friends? Lol lmao.
Oh okay same person!! Living in bigoted town makes you hate foss, I see
good to know…
I hope your real unmasked self is loud and talkative, very based. Might be fun ✨
i'm sorry, they are getting even longer...
hey so um before all of this, i just want to say again that i really really don’t want you to feel any obligation whatsoever to do all of this emotional labour just for my sake (even though I appreciate it!!). i hope that if you’re continuing to talk to me about this that you’re getting something out of it too. most people in my life can’t handle this much text from me, and if that’s you, it’s no big and I still like you and want to chat about other things :)
literally me, i had to switch to a split keyboard (and switch to Colemak) & trackball for work, if i play too many PC games and my chair isn’t set up perfectly ergonomically as well i can get into a lot of pain, but i still want to play them, so bleh. typing is generally less bad, luckily my laptop is pretty easy, but if i’m being honest it builds up for me over a few days and i’ve done a lot of typing in the past few days lol. that being said, I’m on my laptop lying in bed right now, not very ergonomic, but I can only really think when I’m lying down lol
just generally inhabiting a body is such a nuisance sometimes, i want to upload myself to the internet
good idea, i dm’d him, easiest way to be honest lol
yeah, i only started putting the pieces together about this yesterday, oof. sorry about that. 100% a me thing. i am finally starting to feel that feeling of “oh god how deep do the masks go?” as i’m realizing how much people pleasing i do, how much I think I know something about myself only to realize it’s more complicated than that etc. It’s cheezy, but I think I’d describe myself as an iceberg, where it just keeps going deeper and deeper the more I look under the surface. (and it’s probably best to avoid me
)
yeah, it’s complicated. some days i’m meh, some days i’m frustrated, but mildly, you know? is mild frustration really work all the work and pain and aftercare and risk? i have lots of thinking to do still, but it’s helpful to know what it’s like for you ty.
i’ll probably be a bit slower today. I tried working this morning but man I just can’t be f’d today. I am still thinking about our conversation Sunday, I really do appreciate it, I haven’t decided exactly what my next plan is, but for the time being I’ve decided to do as little work as possible and spend that time doing things I enjoy and dream about taking a month off to go on a train ride across the country. i should call in sick today lol and just spend the day on thinking about this, maybe i will
update: ok i called in sick lol
100% this hurts, every time it makes me feel really alone and like I am strange, like no one likes me, and it’s why I’ve been so hesitant to post at all even though I’ve been here for a year (well, that and I can’t handle mean comments, Reddit taught me never to post anywhere). i know the rational response is that it got lost in the confusing sea of posts, or they just don’t have anything to say, or they scrolled past. i guess i just fantasize about someone(s) who is literally me fr fr responding to all of my posts and nodding enthusiastically and adding their own perspective and telling me what they think I should do and it being kind of a Thing. uh, wait, I guess all of that is exactly what’s happening in this conversation actually. I’m living the dream!! Someone is actually listening to all of my thoughts and isn’t immediately running away from how many there are and how contradictory they are!!
lmao
god, if i could clone myself and just talk to her all day i absolutely would. that’s the best friend i need lmao. we could take turns working a dumb job too and no one would be able to tell … i shouldn’t fantasize about impossible things.
one of my aunts, who i do not talk to ever, used to call up everyone on her birthday, and ask them to wish her happy birthday. believe it or not, this wasn’t an act of passive-aggression from her, she just wanted to be cared for and was not afraid to ask for her needs. i think about this a lot, despite never wanting to see her again.
Safe Partner does his best, but even sometimes when I talk to him about an interest, he doesn’t really know how to reciprocate and match my energy, so I feel a bit lonely sometimes even though he is great in so many ways.
i worry about unbalanced relationships a lot, like what if i want to be closer to someone and they don’t? hard to tell sometimes what someone’s thinking. maybe they’re not sure about me, maybe they’re afraid too, maybe i’m coming on too strong, maybe i’m just broken and clingy. it’s led to me disappearing in all kinds of places before. i want to be more relaxed about this stuff, but i don’t know how. this is why i want to embrace the clone life. 3-way polycule between Safe Partner, me, and me please.
does it help you when people respond, even if they haven’t read the book/watched the show/played the game/thought about it? I’ve been wondering if that would be good enough for me.
damn, based, remind me to rant at you about programming languages and frameworks in the future, I have some infodumps stored up in my mind about gamedev, webdev, lol. maybe you can learn! (if you want) i taught basic webdev at college for a bit, felt so alive, so i’m happy to answer questions or walk people through things (this is one of the highlights of my job)
i slept on this, i’m more conflicted about this than I originally thought. sorry, you’re getting the raw uncertainty now!
today, the thought of actually trying to find people like me fr fr in meatspace seems impossible (and also fills me with a lot of conflicting emotions). i think that there’s probably like 8 people on the entire planet that i would tolerate that would tolerate me back and i don’t think they’re the kind of people that go out. plus i need to worry about what to wear, who is around, sensory issues, conversational pacing, needing to respond as soon as they say something instead of being able to take hours to think about it… yuck. long back and forth, like cyper-penpal stuff, feels good (you know, except … job, wrists, lack of sleep, lol), because it’s so flexible and i can really take my time to think, so maybe I’ll just stick around here for a while haha.
also: i’ve been to the university here once to see the uni orchestra play Mahler’s 1st when i first moved here, it’s kinda out of the way of downtown as unis tend to be. it was great, i loved it, but uh not much interest in going back
also: it was one telephone pole a couple years back, not sure how widespread it was, i didn’t even see it in person, Safe Partner sent me a pic lol when he was out
totally fair, i’m still not 100% sure what this need in me is, and what would fulfill it, i’ll let you know when i figure it out… it might be something completely unexpected once i get further unmasking, which is the worst part about rushing anything tbh. i have ended up in situations like first chapter of Orange Book due to strong emotions leading me into things too fast without any mediation, based on a misunderstanding of myself.
i have an absolute list of essays i want to write for bear site since you mentioned that i could even do that, it’s getting longer every day. but you can judge for yourself whether you think i am talkative, if uh this post even fits on one screen lol
gotta go long
smh rtstragedy being a DORK NERD again
This is pretty much my ideal form of conversation, if banging these out on a phone wasn’t hard I’d do it way more lol. Also though “it’s no big and I still like you and want to chat about other things :)” 
I just have a boring regular keyboard at a desk but it’s not sore. I should get out my Thinkpad to type from bed more…
(trans autistic people will say this)
Woah based, awesome. Like thanks dad, I do not need to know about the stuff you joink it to though.
This is a good thing to have put together though, cheesy or not! Putting stuff together is basically always good.
That’s so real, doing what you like, talking to internet dorks and daydreaming about long trainrides is such a better use of you time. We love to see it, don’t we folks?!
I think I would get annoyed at my own clone’s hyperfixated flights of fancy, lol. Two mes might be too much… Wow though that aunt was pretty cool in that one way, huh.
Oh god I just don’t think about this, I skate by on vibes. If I thought this shit through it would probably stress me to death. I sometimes try to gauge interest level from other people but most I am
It’s better than nothing, and if they wanna ask me stuff I can yap for hours. I do get irritated if nobody has seen THE THING but it’s not other people’s fault, I guess.
Okay but I outright cannot do math, the Commodore 64 User’s Manual is my sleep paralysis demon. Integers…
Y’know u rite, fuck irl meatspace. Cyber penpals gang.
Oh god I’m so sorry, this wins MOST PAINFUL THING I HAVE READ TODAY award
my condolences…
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lol i find this endearing tbh, but for real I can relate a lot to Maria’s inner dialogue in Orange Book, she has that dorky energy for real. Her inner monologue about meeting Steph on the roof and thinking that lighting her cigarette would be patriarchal is so good lmfao, i don’t smoke but i can 100% relate to that scene anyway
but thank you :) i’ve had a lot of bad experiences because someone got fed up with me talking too long or too late so i mediate and shorten my thoughts a lot. and of course, i want to be fair and accommodating as well.
haha yeah, sometimes i don’t have a thing grabbing my attention at all and i just feel dead, so it’s nice to have internet friends i can chat with
damn that’s sick, the trackpads on laptops arent great for me and i’m picky about the feel of a keyboard (mushy = no typey) since i type so much lol, i also need a light touch keyboard, so my split keyb is as light as i could get full-size switches to be, but i still use the laptop keyboard in bed more
i hate being in my office since it’s a “work” place (how fucked up is that?! i pay for that room!!!)
sometimes he uh … overshares, i do NOT want to hear him talk about Stellar Blade, actually, I try to change the subject fast yikes
(if it was literally anyone I wasn’t related to, I have basically 0 boundaries about basically anything in telling or hearing, btw)
i would have quit yesterday if i didn’t have a several thousand dollar per month mortgage lol, or maybe even a year ago, i feel so free today now that I gave up on pretending to care for work, but still have to work out the finances haha
i hear you, i get really really emotional about internet things. i hope it’s not too weird, i’m glad to hear it’s not just me
frick hexbear’s 504 issue is so bad i want to Direct Neural Link (that’s a thing I just made up) you so that i dont have to refresh over and over to chat lol, i’m terrified of losing a big post one of these times
WHAT A GOOD POST OMG I AM SO GLAD I CALLED IN SICK TODAY SO THAT I COULD READ THAT i wrote a lot of words as a response, god your writing made me feel things, I haven’t even read the story but I still really enjoyed reading it!!!
damn is this normal? i have been missing out
hmmmmmm this is kind of a good idea tbh, maybe i shouldn’t worry about it. i guess i care about people like a super lot and want to be the Best Person Ever for them, so I am worried about how they think and feel in order to be decent. Some of that is probably problematic for my own needs though
I hope as a substitute, you will accept me talking about a related thing this time instead :)
but, tbh, I like your recommendations, everything I’ve gotten into because of you has been so cool so far, so I’m looking forward to more once I work through the current batch.
I’m pretty sure I have some form of dyscalculia, tbh. Luckily the programming I do is mostly not math, just logic, and categorizing things, so I get by. When I have to do mental math I start sweating and my minuses and plusses and multiplies and divides get all mixed up, and when I have to do math in code I fucking die lol, coding games is tough for me, mostly I just find someone else’s solution or a library to do the math for me.
(Also, I did do BASIC on a C64 when I was tiny (whatever short form makes sense for my name) and I fucking hated it tbh. Most modern programming languages are way easier to work with)
also sleep paralysis gang yoooo i used to sleep on my stomach and wake up suffocating and unable to move lmao. then i had surgery to get my gall bladder out and for some reason i went from 4 or 5 times a week to like 1 or 2 times every few months. how tf does that work?
fuck yes
yep totally, fuck irl meatspace tbh
I have a rough draft of one I’m working on. I want to get screenshots. It’s going to take some time. I’m going to go all out, and I bet no one will read it lmao. But I will. Maybe you will.
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I almost always mean DORK and NERD as endearing :3 But yeah, one of the things that’s great about Maria is she genuinely believes she is hardcore and cool and aloof and stuff, but you tear back one layer and actually she’s a nerd plus punk albums, lmao.
It’s good to keep being accommodating and fair in mind, I do appreciate it, but also no worries!
I keep knowing autistic transfemmes who are apologetic about talking too much…
The “refreshing your inbox staring into the void” vibe, lol. INBOX, SHOW ME THE QUEERS IN MY COMPUTER!!!
Pretty fucked up, not a fan. Someone should do something about this
And yeah trackpads suck, but I was raised on old laptops so it’s nothing to me lol. I am not a normal computer user…
It’s definitely not but I try to normalise it everywhere I go. Not everybody can do it, these giant replies, but I think autistic people (and everybody else) should be free to yap neurodiversely. I love to see it.
Oh no
you gotta record your ramblings so he can listen back lol, that’s brutal though. It does make me sad when neuro… diversities? are incompatible? 
Safe Partner is supposed to be NT I thought, but to me this feels like an ‘autism and adhd people have difficulties’ kinda thing.
Yeah I’m not saying like, never care about these sorts of things, but I think you should just try to look at how the other person is interacting and what they’re saying, do they seem like they’re having difficulties? If no dw about it, I guess. You can ask maybe, but Idk.
YES
Post it in the games comm and stuff, and then @ me and I will read your thingy :3
I’m gonna be snackin and winding down and stuff in a sec so I won’t be at the keyboard again till tomorrow, but I’m marking this reply unread 'cause I’m gonna do it (a big silly reply) tomorrow ✨
thank you and no problem <3 have a good night!