Secret trans mega that no one can post in

https://hexbear.net/post/7599480

I love the person I have become. Before transitioning I used to be apathetic about my own existence.

But now I’m a strong beautiful woman who forges ahead and expresses my thoughts and feelings with relative ease and freedom.

Even after losing a few friends, I understand that I’ve gained more over the years than I have lost.

Opened gender stuff back up with my partner, and it was pretty rough TBH. I was honest that I’ve always felt queer but didn’t have the words for it, just knew it wasn’t safe to feel how I did in the area I grew up in. They are very supportive. It obviously is not going to work for them, though.

I guess I can now openly search for queer spaces, which is a huge improvement for me. I’m feeling braver and bolder than I ever have thanks to all of you here. This is a start, even if things are going to get worse before they get better.

Got socks w 3d cat paw pad things, what could be better

Laser session #3 tomorrow and 1 year of HRT next week! The world is such a scary, weird place but a lot of my internal struggles with self-acceptance and dysphoria are starting to feel smaller and smaller and I’m so grateful for that. I’ve made some really amazing friends that I keep growing closer to and I feel gender euphoria on an almost daily basis now :)

Lots of issues in my life still, whether they’re a result of being trans or not, but I have to celebrate the good when it’s there!

In the first couple of months of starting to present female I found two really cute and cheap pairs of women’s boots in size 13 and bought them. I assumed this was normal transfem experience.

I now realize this was the statistical equivalent of getting back to back scratcher wins.

Cute. Cheap. Size 13. Pick 2 if you are lucky.

i came out to my long time friend who i’ve kept in touch with but not really had a conversation with in years, and they also came out to me!! :o trans people finding each other like stand users in the chaos that is early life and adulthood.

Sorry, the new mega is members only

i don’t ship sonic x shadow

I wanna be gayer

I have no idea what causes these cycles of us withdrawing from people and social plans but I really wish it would stop. I’ve found trans community irl but I feel like I’ve neglected all the work I did finding that and building connections and friendships. Even here I was active again for a few weeks, maybe a month, and then let it wane.

I guess having these thoughts at least means something. Even if I just go through the cycle again, I’m at a better starting point. Most importantly, I’ll still get to experience the joy before fizzling out again. That makes it all worth it.

I recently found out what I thought all this time was a horrible, painful hip injury due to a fall is actually my back. I finally got an xray done and learned I had a spinal injury go undetected long enough it decided to try healing up on its own, obviously not well since OUCH. That PT wasn’t just a bigot but a quack as well. Also I have arthritis, how fun.

For good news the cream the doctor prescribed was on sale and it worked right away, a little too well, I went HAM fixing up more of the shitsplosion aftermath in my basement and now I’m sore again.