Just realized today I am 300 days sober!
My wife and son have been away looking at colleges and they come back tonight. I have to pick them up at the airport at 11:30 at night. In the past this would have been a problem for me because it would soon trigger a binge.
I’d be able to be sober to pick them up, but in a day or two I’d end up drinking way too much and be undeniably drunk. I could always go a few days without drinking, but soon enough I’d hit a cliff and end up black out drunk.
Sometimes I’d drink every day for weeks and hold it together, but soon enough I’d go way overboard. This would cause such a mess with my wife and family as I’m a very obnoxious person when I’m blacked out.
I never figured out why I binged. The psychology of it has to this day escaped me, but what I did figure out was that it would always, eventually, happen and the only way to prevent that was to stop drinking.
I will not drink today and I know why I won’t.
Awesome, congratulations. A friend of mine who would binge described it this way: you can choose whether you want to dance with the gorilla or not, but the gorilla chooses when you stop. Except he didn’t say, “dance with.”