so yeah. i established a persona that wears whatever ages ago. the only relevant steps in my coming out (in my city) are therefore name and pronouns. it is horrific. i don’t want to talk abt myself or be the topic of any discussion. i like the anonymity here. but these people know me.

i just turned off notifications and spammed a few group chats.

… guess i’ll burn my phone.

update: i’ll survive. i had a good, long and agitated walking-around-in-the-flat-while-crying, then had a peak into the messages. had 2 really cool chats with ppl i hadn’t talked to for a long while. the rest is a lot of emoji noise. which is nice, but i don’t know what to do with that. it’s the nice ones.

  • TaterTot@piefed.socialEnglish
    22·
    3 days ago

    Hey, I’m really proud of you. That took a lot of courage. There’s no getting around the flood of emotions an feelings of panic that doing something like this will bring, you just have to wait it out. But remember, you told your friends. These are people who like and interact with you by choice. And just as I’m sure you would stand by them, they will stand by you.

    Eat some food, drink some water, and know that everything will feel a bit better after a good nights sleep.

  • Tywèle@piefed.socialEnglish
    22·
    3 days ago

    The first few hours will be agony because of basically every thought rushing through your head but it will feel so liberating afterwards.

    • kluczyczka (she/her)OPEnglish
      11·
      3 days ago

      ok, no one thinks i am dumb for realising so late. (take that anxiety. you were wrong.)

      one friend kept awkwardly quiet. that might be a problem? usually he lives in his phone. we’ll see.

    • kluczyczka (she/her)OPEnglish
      8·
      3 days ago

      not that, but there is a potential for calling me pretentious, if i decided, to put the long version in my passport. :)

      • Berengaria_of_Navarre@lemmy.worldEnglish
        9·
        3 days ago

        Truth be told, I’m not out to anyone beyond my partner and a couple of friends, and I haven’t picked a name. Im sure whatever you picked will be great! After all, you wouldn’t have picked it if it didn’t seem right.

        • kluczyczka (she/her)OPEnglish
          4·
          3 days ago

          i am now pretty much stuck with it (the short form) there is no way i am doing this again, ever. at least no the public anouncement.

          i might come back to having a goth nsme. “hi, i’m misery, glad to meet you.” :)