Hey, I went through almost exactly what you’re going through. Especially that last sentiment. I also agree with ashinadash that it’s really not a typical cisgender experience of depression to identify the way out as gender transition (I felt that, too).

The good news is that there ARE steps you can take. You can start presenting differently, change your pronouns, experiment, see how it feels.

I was pretty sure I was gonna transition to a woman, but after I did a soft tryout, it wasn’t for me. I landed on bigender instead. And I have to tell you, a LOT of pressure was released during the experimentation phase. The longer you out it off, the more it’s gonna stress you out.