First, apologies if this isn’t appropriate for a community called “casual conversation”. I just don’t know of another conversational community to post in. I am more than happy to delete this on request.
Does anyone out there seem to get addicted to their bad moods? Like, you’ve been feeling down on and off for a week. Instead of seeking out media, conversations, etc. that you know you like and makes you happy, you’d prefer to keep absorbing unhappy media and talking about unhappy things to keep you unhappy. It’s almost like you begin to enjoy being unhappy and you don’t want it to stop. What the fuck is even that though? Are some people just meant to be insufferable like that? I don’t understand why this happens. When I’m happy, I want to continue to be happy. When I’m down, I want to continue to be down even if there is no discernible reason.
Just curious on your thoughts. Thanks for your time.
I hit a weird depression last year, where I was laid off and was very melancholy. I was missing the UK for some reason and feeling general wanderlust, probably because I was stuck at home and couldn’t go anywhere or do anything. So I fell head first into… Jane Austen. As a man, it was honestly a lot of fun. I watched Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility, Becoming Jane (outlier I know), and honestly I loved a BBC only version of Northanger Abbey starring Felicity Jones and the Onion Knight from GoT.
Looking back, as a male, I don’t think I was dealing with my emotions well, and this was funnily enough a great outlet for me, where I could be extremely overly emotional while working through my anger and depression. It was… fun, in a way, wallowing in that, my SO and I watched movies like that every night for a week. Sometimes you just feel… sad. And you keep feeling sad until you’re not