In short, I’m miserable, lonely, and broke. I need to get the fuck out of California and into someplace with rent less than $1000 a month. I also need to find a job that gets me like $25 an hour. I’m good at data entry and formwork and I have a really great voice I have no idea what to do with. I have absolutely no clue what I’m doing and I suck ass at all the important parts of being a person, and all the people who try to help me can’t help me or I don’t get it because I got the full power of the spectrum radiating inside of my forebrain and it’s fucking me up.
I’ve tried budgeting with spreadsheets and it doesn’t work for me. I’ve tried looking for work but it’s a brand new hell every time I open the browser. I hate this. I fucking hate that mental illness fucked me up when I was supposed to figure out my life and now that I’m finding a bit of peace within myself I still have to contend with all the things everyone else has to do and recognizes as shitty but somehow get done while I just suck ass at everything.
Help me.
I mean I can definitely see how your job would feel excruciating at times lol. If only we could have the long term hyperfocus flavor of neurodivergence…sigh
Also of course that’s what your search engine spits out lol. I don’t know if it’s just me, but I definitely feel like my searches have definitely been more insidious and boot-licky lately, no matter how specific my search query gets
It’d certainly make things easier!
Yeah I have noticed a lot of the same. Trying to find any left or anti-corporate source has become a significant effort if you don’t know exactly the title of the page. At this point I’ve had better luck searching my browsing history if I know I’ve read it