RedStarOS [she/her, it/its]

Just a transsexual communist operating system spreading Juche to the world

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Cake day: October 20th, 2023

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  • I’m still in contact with and regularly see a lot of old friends from childhood (we all grew up in the same neighborhood and most of us still live there). I came out to them as trans earlier this year and they’ve all been very accepting of me. They refer to me by my new name and pronouns. Most of them are cishet men, a couple of them are queer or non-binary.

    Despite their acceptance I feel like I am becoming more distant from them by the day. They haven’t really done anything wrong… but I just feel like I’ve been masking and pretending to be a different person my whole life and that’s the person they’ve grown to know. And when I see them I feel a sort of reflex to act like that person again. It’s a bit traumatizing and it sucks because I still love a lot of them but sometimes I just don’t know if I can be with them.

















  • Went to a high school friend’s birthday party last night, presenting fully fem. This guy who used to be my friend in like elementary school was there. He didn’t recognize me at all and was trying to rizz me up, he asked what my name was, asked how I knew my friend who I came with (probably trying to see if I was his gf), kept looking at me while talking to my friends, and kept trying to find opportunities to like fist bump me so he could touch my hand

    I’ll take this as a W but also not really because he was super drunk and gross and saying all this unhinged shit that should warrant him a gulag. At least my friends were all laughing at him though