like i said itās weird and thatās just the closest approximation, what i actually experience is more of an extra sense akin to proprioception but that sense is itself hard to notice if youāre not familiar with it (proprioception is how you know where your limbs are, so you can touch your fingers without seeing them). Iām not literally experiencing a sense of touch when i imagine things.
And i donāt literally see anything overlaid ontop of my regular vision with my eyes open, if i close my eyes and try to visualize things i can manage a faint silhouette against the weird noise you see when itās completely dark, and i can make it move and change to a minor degree.
But if i imagine a pipe curving to the left itās like a 3d model in a computer without a display, iām not seeing it but at the same time itās very much there and i canā¦ see it without seeing it? It doesnāt make any more sense to me either, itās kind of a baffling thing when i pay attention to it like thisā¦
Iām not just omnisciently aware of the thing iām imagining, itās very much from a normal perspective, but itās sorta like itās a wireframe model so i can also see the rear side of things, and again thatās just the best way i can think of to try to explain how the actual experience isā¦
And all this is on a separate mentalā¦ channel? display? that i can overlay on reality if i want, which is when it really becomes an extension of proprioception because i can āfeelā the thing(s) around me despite not seeing jack diddly squat.
I should also note that i have pretty good audio imagination, if iām in a completely silent room my mind is basically an mp3 player, it feels like iām replaying things in perfect fidelity though if i pay a bit of attention to it i do notice that itās pretty obviously not actually perfect fidelity, itās just what my brain thinks perfect fidelity sounds like, which is a pretty wild thing to experience. My brain is studying itself and giving itself criticismā¦
like i said itās weird and thatās just the closest approximation, what i actually experience is more of an extra sense akin to proprioception but that sense is itself hard to notice if youāre not familiar with it (proprioception is how you know where your limbs are, so you can touch your fingers without seeing them). Iām not literally experiencing a sense of touch when i imagine things.
And i donāt literally see anything overlaid ontop of my regular vision with my eyes open, if i close my eyes and try to visualize things i can manage a faint silhouette against the weird noise you see when itās completely dark, and i can make it move and change to a minor degree.
But if i imagine a pipe curving to the left itās like a 3d model in a computer without a display, iām not seeing it but at the same time itās very much there and i canā¦ see it without seeing it? It doesnāt make any more sense to me either, itās kind of a baffling thing when i pay attention to it like thisā¦
Iām not just omnisciently aware of the thing iām imagining, itās very much from a normal perspective, but itās sorta like itās a wireframe model so i can also see the rear side of things, and again thatās just the best way i can think of to try to explain how the actual experience isā¦
And all this is on a separate mentalā¦ channel? display? that i can overlay on reality if i want, which is when it really becomes an extension of proprioception because i can āfeelā the thing(s) around me despite not seeing jack diddly squat.
I should also note that i have pretty good audio imagination, if iām in a completely silent room my mind is basically an mp3 player, it feels like iām replaying things in perfect fidelity though if i pay a bit of attention to it i do notice that itās pretty obviously not actually perfect fidelity, itās just what my brain thinks perfect fidelity sounds like, which is a pretty wild thing to experience. My brain is studying itself and giving itself criticismā¦